
this reminds me
of the moon and I.
it rummages around
in the morning storm.
it remains afterwards.
this wind turns the leaves
upside down and I can see
their underthings.
in case you were wondering,
they are not covered in lace.

I lugged the chair to the top of the stairs
even though it was full of rain. I dropped it
from our attic window. I was stunned
by the sound it made when it hit the ground.
It was full of tiny rabbit bones.
I destroyed a nest, a home, a bundle
of new life. Those little eyes saw nothing
but the underside of paisley. My heart is
tangled thread with a hidden silver pistol.
I do not deserve to pray.

you said my cheeks were hydrangeas
and that’s why you wanted me.
I licked my fingers and held them
up to the sun until they burned.
what glistens is mine. this is like that time
when I decided to go. like the time
you found the lilacs of someone else’s
neck. I told myself that bad things happen
to good people. There was nothing left
to do but burst into a morning glory.

I went to the grocery store
and grabbed those little orange
globes and rolled them down
the aisles.
A sprig of asparagus in my teeth,
a leaf of lettuce as a fascinator.
Apples fill out the curves
in my shirt, while fiddlehead
ferns are earrings.
I handled the strawberries
one by one.
I put them in my pockets,
walked outside and squeezed
all those little ballooned hearts.
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you take a bite out of my bed
as if it were a pink cake, as if
it were something to be eaten.
the frosting can’t withstand
this heat. I can’t keep it looped
up in tiny peaks, like mountains
like clouds we brought home.
I feed the tadpoles in the bowl
on the counter nothing but
the sugar that puddles on the floor.
...will they ever grow legs? will they
question this life as much as I do?
will they live long enough
to ask?

I have stacks of books you told me
to read. I balance plates and teacups
on their woven frames, these tiny
uneven cities.
I will never get to their words.
I eat my poached eggs, drink my
black coffee and stare at the stacks,
prop my feet up.
They have a light that sneaks out
from between the pages as I sleep.
I wonder what you’re trying
to tell me.

oh, who knew what these muscles
can do? they are formidable fruits,
rotting at their own pace.
those calluses are the deserts
of your hands, the downfall
of your skin when it tries to be
so gentle.
how many fluttering bats
have you swallowed today?
you keep your mouth open
when you sleep, you know.
just let ‘em fly right in.